Re-parenting for me is similar to parenting in that it never seems to end. My experience with re-parenting echoed birth: a rebirth of self which began shortly after I left my husband and young children. I felt alone, naked and exposed, vulnerable as a new born, uncertain of how to begin anew. With no developmental chart for rebirth, I skipped the crawling and toddler stages and wobbled upright, perhaps a wee bit off-center, but standing.
So began the journey of my re-parenting, my do-over. The often stated phrase, the journey is the destination, applies here. My sojourn spanned forty years of nurturing as I slowly, steadily stepped into my power. I feel confident in my long sought power, but there are days that it wavers.
My reading of the Science of Mind magazine serves as a guidepost, a check on weight and balance: what’s weighing on me, pulling me off of my spiritual center, and hints on how to regain my equilibrium. Gary Zukav’s article appears in one of the magazine’s issues along with Rev. Ron Fox. Both speak to spiritual power and coming home to our authentic self—a self that sets ego aside.
I ask myself, “What/who is my authentic self?” I sit in silence and wait. The answer comes: It’s the very essence of who and what I am. I don’t need to look for it, try to figure out what it is, or question who I am because I am me—the same person today as I as on the day I was born. The same person who has evolved into the present-day spiritual version of me in various configurations, always the same but with add on’s and take-aways; letting go of doubt, fear, and limitation and allowing myself to evolve.
Ernest Holmes tells us we are the center of power in our tomorrow because we have the intellectual power to create. Spiritual power is real.
I can’t, nor do I want to, change what and who I am. What I can change is how I think about the limited version of self, and how I present that to others. I practiced that Sunday as I experienced a couple of challenges, one with a machine and one with a person. I dealt with both by being patient and kind, confident and in control. And, kindness was returned. I felt closer to the person that I want to be seen as. Someone in possession of authentic power.
We must create authentic power in order to evolve individually and to evolve as a species. –Gary Zukav