Surrender. The theme of the month in Science of Mind magazine. Boy, talk about God’s light shining down on me! Just when I needed to hear it the most: Surrender!
The readings reminded me that I’m not in control of my life. The economy changes, jobs disappear; people come and go. The guidance being, allow Spirit to express greatly in my life. Let go of how I think things should happen and allow God in. Leaving the illusion of control behind, I allow room for the Divine to step in.
In my early life, after leaving my family, I didn’t feel in control. One question I had never asked myself, but probably should have, is what the other side of leaving my family might have looked like. I didn’t have a clue about what awaited. I never considered that I’d be left without any afterward plan. I felt so alone.
I now realize there was no preparation for such an event—no “how-to” book in the library or a bookstore that tells you how to leave your husband and young children. How to begin anew. Having no developmental chart for starting a life over, I skipped the crawling and toddler stages and wobbled upright, perhaps a wee bit off-center, but standing.
I managed to get through the various life-phases but at a considerable price. I allowed an inner demon to creep into my psyche, denial, using it when needed to cover my eyes as I passed through a variety of phases.
On reflection, post-memoir, I see I was never alone but didn’t know that, or understand what it meant, for a long time. God, the Universe, was always watching over me: the Invisible shining light on the visible. A story that began with abandonment ended up going far beyond that.
Now, open to Divine guidance, I can see how all this applies to my life then and now. My journey turned out to be a voyage of self-discovery, a story of triumph over demons. And, I bump into issues daily that require me to surrender, to allow that Divine energy in to guide me as I stage into this incredible next stage in my life, post-memoir.
Surrender to what is. Say yes to life and see how life suddenly starts working for you rather than against you. –Eckhart Tolle